i have been trying to cope with the fact that my art and OCs may never become popular. it hurts, but today i am coping a little better with it. as long as me and my friends feel attached to them and i can successfully tell their story through a webcomic someday, i will be satisfied.

see it only on patreon. it's kinda funny.

https://www.patreon.com/posts/omg-johan

The NSFW version will remain a Patreon exclusive. The censored version will be posted here next week.

If you don't know Mocha Chilla, Mocha is the protagonist of my in-progress webcomic, "Zootubers." The project is not public yet and probably won't be for years, but I hope you enjoy my characters.

Mocha is a grumpy, struggling, 30-year-old painter/sculptor living in the large city of "Gain Beach", which is filled with other impatient creators and entertainers fighting to make it big. She is fairly awkward (not shy) and very eccentric. She has a disdain for all talented artists that are younger than her, which adds much weight on her back in a competitive city like Gain Beach.

With the rise of young and controversial 22-year-old celebrity, Pakapaka Scopy (see her here), a pattern of presumable serial murders sprawling across the country, and a mysterious red display of light that seems to follow her everywhere, Mocha has a lot on her mind. It complicates her feelings towards the world and her art. How will she deal?

You can find my other characters on Art Fight, Toyhouse, and some posts mixed in on my various social media! Many more characters will be added in the future!

Art Fight: Art Fight - MisteriousChum's Profile

Toyhouse: MisteriousChum on Toyhouse

i began drawing this character for artfight based on the refs i already had saved, but now i cannot find the character or user on artfight. if anyone knows who this character belongs to i'd appreciate knowing.

🌀 you will donate to see her 🌀

donate to see her now!

https://youtu.be/HcN3VCC8E5c?si=n9sFP08S2fqj-pSm

the line "if i'm the only one being laughed at, it must be the reason i live" reminds me of myself from the recent past (the past few years), who was convinced that she was an alien completely different from everyone else, seen as immature and talkative and too much. i felt special in that time. it is a selfish way to think, but it is somewhat comforting in a self-absorbed, nostalgic, childish, and securing way. isolating from the rest of the world, feeling like you are only the one who has ever felt so alone.

i miss this feeling, but it is better not to have it. i wish i still had a bit of that identity though, as i was less depressed then. something like this song would've changed the way i view the world with its beautiful harmony and choice of sound. i was naive and optimistic then, because i had a clearer sense of who i was supposed to be and art felt newer and more authentic.

even my view of far past art has become skewed because the artificiality of the internet. i am trying to rework this, but it isn't right to live in the past either. i think others are feeling the same way as me since themes of the 2000s are desperately trying to be recreated, but i think all i want is something new. everyone is trying to tread back because they hate the current times. why can't we create something out of the current times instead.

https://youtu.be/k72z-KMabXQ?si=p7IieLJBj8uj9vjX ("Girl Who Tends to Look Downcast" by colloid)

https://youtu.be/oRTA5dJbXrM?si=rT4syGQ1yt3wZUWu ("Aquatic Ambience" piano cover by Verdegrand)

it is lovely to listen to music in the rain. it sprinkled for the first time in a while, and i didn't really get into the music that was playing on my playlist until fog started to build up. there was something special about seeing cell towers obscured in fog on a wide open service road. the sky is a completely smooth grey today.

https://youtu.be/sYGVTKAj-zI?si=wl8jHzq4huf1MmKv

here is a song i listened to on my drive home today. the original song is sung by miku. i like how realistic miku sounds in the chorus of the original version, but i don't think iroha's tuning can be beat.

it is drizzling and the sky is grey. although it didn't get darker, it felt like it did when i drove up to my house and saw the porch lights on. the bright white lights dimmed everything else, it felt like i was entering a safe haven in some fantastical crook (it felt like my childhood. there are moments where i feel like im a kid again but they don't last long. i've been trying for a long time to figure out how to get that feeling back for longer). the song itself made me nostalgic for my phase of adventurous, obscure 2000s anime and dreamlike stories.

original song by tiara

nekomura iroha cover by kyaami

https://tiermaker.com/create/videogame-franchises-200-franchises-473596

this one, unlike my last tier list, is based more on my opinion on all of the games combined rather than individual games. that's why series like the last of us and pacman are so low in this tier list compared to my other one.